Author Archives: Samantha Mercanti

I am asked one question a lot, “when did you start writing your book?”  I might incorporate why I wrote a book or not, we will see. I feel like these are intertwined though.   I started writing probably over ten years ago. Someone who has written a few books reviewed my book and said,Continue reading “set in motion”

I find some think that because I am open with my illness that I want to be in the spotlight or have the attention.  It’s a bit of a misconception.  If you remember, I am naturally shy.  I prefer to be at home, where I feel comfortable and safe.  I like my introverted qualities toContinue reading “bit more about me”

I have always wondered why we seek happiness.  Why we think that the key to life is finding happiness.  Why we are told that happiness will bring joy and peace.  The first time I smiled after my illness, I mean really smiled and meant it, I realized that maybe we aren’t supposed to be happyContinue reading “happiness”

I have taken medication for as long as I can remember.  I think I started taking medication a couple years after my first episode.  I do not really remember when I started taking meds.   I have struggled with the idea of medication for years.  I think there will always be a little part ofContinue reading “medication”

A little bit more about me… I am naturally very shy. Have been since I was a kid. I love debates.  I debated in university in some courses.  I loved hearing different opinions and looking at situations with a different set of eyes.  Seeing someone else’s point of view. I believe two theories can beContinue reading “a little bit about me. part 2.”

I think I posted previously on how I was such an honest, sweet and kind kid in my childhood and youth.  I loved that part of me, that part that was so kind and true and caring and gentle.  I am pretty sure I am still that person deep down.  I am still kind, honestContinue reading “i like this me better”

My illness means so much to me.  Schizophrenia means surviving.  It means pain and joy.  It means strength and weakness.  It means struggle and resilience.  It means loneliness and compassion.  It means overcoming and thriving.  My illness means nothing and yet everything.  In some ways, to me, it means to live. We are given lifeContinue reading “what schizophrenia means to me”

Yes, I have an illness, but my illness is not who I am, it is something I have.  However, my illness played, and still plays a big part in shaping who I am and who I want to be. Every day I struggle.  One day might be easy and the next day not.  Yet inContinue reading “who i am”

Sometimes I feel happy and then a second later I feel sad, and you know what, that is completely okay.  We are not always going to be happy all the time and we may feel happy one minute and then sad the next, and that is okay.  Remember though, if you are deeply sad, thinkingContinue reading “the way i feel”

Being open was not a choice for me.  Some may think or say I made this choice or I had a choice, but I did not.  It was a little bit more like the decision was already made for me, I could not see my life any differently.  I knew deep down that being openContinue reading “being open”