Author Archives: Samantha Mercanti

In December of 2023, I was sitting quietly on a plane on my way back home. As we were on the tarmac, I said in my mind, like I always do, I think I am good, Universe. I’ve lived a good life, if it’s my time, it’s my time. But, typically as the plane startsContinue reading “im good”

When my aunt and uncle picked me up from university, after my first, what they would call, episode, I didn’t know. Sitting in the backseat of that car, looking out the glass window, not remembering if I talked or not. But, I didn’t know. I couldn’t see the future in that moment of time. IContinue reading “i didn’t know”

I am a different person than I was three years ago when I wrote my book. To be honest, I am a different person from one day ago. Some words in the book I don’t necessarily believe anymore, but I hold space for them and the person I was in that time. Success with aContinue reading “my book”

I am always asked if I believe in karma. I don’t. Want to know why? Because from the day I was born to the day I was assaulted and became sick, I was a kind, honest and sweet person. I never lied. I treated everyone around me with love. I showed people respect. And yet,Continue reading “karma and selfish”

I was talking to my cousin and she was telling me, Sam people care about you and what you do. And I was like, are you sure? I’m really not that special, I am just like everyone else. This concept is very hard for me to grasp. In Buddhism, all living things are created equal,Continue reading “special”

I’ve been struggling a lot with the topic of homelessness. We had two people living in our office backyard. At first, we let them stay, but then people put thoughts in our minds that scared us, and then there was some type of assault. We couldn’t have that on our property. So now here weContinue reading “margaret”

People always say to me, if anything sam, you are honest. It’s a value I love about myself. My father always says, Samantha just calls a spade a spade. I won’t talk behind your back, I’ll say it to your face. And if I am in the wrong, I will acknowledge it. I won’t makeContinue reading “honest, if anything”

If you get lucky, I might let you in. It may take months, or possibly years for me to let someone into my life. And I am a master sabotager – it’s a skill, one that I embrace because I know people that want to be in my life will eventually be. Through the goodContinue reading “if you get lucky”

I’ve been asked throughout my life how intelligent I am, specifically if I am a genius. And I always answer, I don’t think so. I’ve never openly shared my thoughts on my intelligence until this very moment – exactly right now. I believe intelligence is relative and very subjective. What is intelligent to one personContinue reading “am i?”

I’ve wanted to write this post for years, for some reason I wasn’t ready until now. This post is about my Uncle Mo and for my aunt, my cousins, my family and for everyone who has ever experienced an illness, especially very young. My Uncle Mo is and was… Strong, and Powerful, and Fierce, andContinue reading “my uncle mo”