Author Archives: Samantha Mercanti

I have learned in my journey. With all the amazing and all the awful, I do feel I have learned. Yet, I have not learned too. Sometimes I think I have this place figured out. I feel smart, wise and knowledgeable or people tell me I am. Most days though, I feel like I haven’tContinue reading “do i know anything”

I have not blog posted in a while! School and work and life have been busy lately! Before my first episode in university (happened first year final exams), I was a star in the lab. You could ask me anything, tell me anything, and I could do it, no questions asked. I loved being inContinue reading “i wish”

What an interesting year, or should I say two years – somewhat difficult, somewhat rewarding and somewhat altering. Even though challenging, I don’t want to change what I went through the past year, I learned a lot about myself, about this world, about mental illness and about life. In everything in life, there is somethingContinue reading “this past year”

I am asked one question a lot, “when did you start writing your book?”  I might incorporate why I wrote a book or not, we will see. I feel like these are intertwined though.   I started writing probably over ten years ago. Someone who has written a few books reviewed my book and said,Continue reading “set in motion”

I always say that I do not care what people think, but there is one part of my life I feel is judged and scrutinized. I was embarrassed to share this. And I realized I don’t care what people think. So, why was I embarrassed sometimes to share this part of my life.  I haveContinue reading “a companion”

I find some think that because I am open with my illness that I want to be in the spotlight or have the attention.  It’s a bit of a misconception.  If you remember, I am naturally shy.  I prefer to be at home, where I feel comfortable and safe.  I like my introverted qualities toContinue reading “bit more about me”

I always love when people say to me, “Oh my goodness, your food touched meat.”  So yes, it is fine if you are a vegan or vegetarian and do not like when your food touches meat.  I respect that.  It’s a personal choice.  However, I was vegetarian in I think 1998.  I would go toContinue reading “vegetarian”

I have always wondered why we seek happiness.  Why we think that the key to life is finding happiness.  Why we are told that happiness will bring joy and peace.  The first time I smiled after my illness, I mean really smiled and meant it, I realized that maybe we aren’t supposed to be happyContinue reading “happiness”

I have taken medication for as long as I can remember.  I think I started taking medication a couple years after my first episode.  I do not really remember when I started taking meds.   I have struggled with the idea of medication for years.  I think there will always be a little part ofContinue reading “medication”

A little bit more about me… I am naturally very shy. Have been since I was a kid. I love debates.  I debated in university in some courses.  I loved hearing different opinions and looking at situations with a different set of eyes.  Seeing someone else’s point of view. I believe two theories can beContinue reading “a little bit about me. part 2.”