Author Archives: Samantha Mercanti

My mind goes to dark places.  Maybe it is my mind that brings me to these dark places or maybe it is something else.  All I know is that I need to remind myself that what I am thinking will eventually pass. Are we supposed to be positive and happy all the time?  Does thisContinue reading “we all go to dark places”

I just wanted to share a little more information about me. I am a pretty simple person.  I do not need or want a fancy a car, a fancy house or fancy things.  I do like buying nice clothes because I love fashion.  I actually have wanted to start a personal shopping business, because IContinue reading “a little bit about me.”

Disordered eating is a difficult subject for me.  I have been on this journey for a few years.  I think the issue for me is that I sometimes am not honest with myself or I do not truly understand what I am going through. The past six months I had a lot of triggers andContinue reading “eat happy and enjoy the run”

One thing I have learned in my life is that you do have to forgive the people that may have hurt you in your life.  Forgiveness is difficult.  I believe the most difficult forgiveness is the forgiveness of ourselves for our past mistakes.  We do need to forgive others, but we also need to forgiveContinue reading “forgiveness and healing”

Going to university with a mental illness (and even a physical illness) in the year 2001 is very different than going to university nowadays.  It is much better now but we do still have a long way to go.  Everyone has a tutor now.  I was never offered a tutor in my chem degree onContinue reading “a little more info…”

Why do we sometimes lack compassion?  I have always wondered this.  Maybe I lacked it for some periods of my life.  Compassion is an interesting thing.  Do you have compassion?  Do we all somewhere deep down have compassion?   Feeling compassion for others is given to us only if we want it and are truly readyContinue reading “compassion.”

The only people who truly know what I went though are my parents.  If you want to know more ask them or ask me.  For some reason a lot of people don’t ask me, they just assume maybe they know.  My parents saw firsthand what I went through and my parents did everything with meContinue reading “why i am so close to my parents.”

I have bad days.  Don’t we all.  My bad days can be tough.  Sometimes I just want to curl up in my bed and not talk to anyone and not deal with life.   Those days, I do get up, go on my computer, go for a run, go to work, have dinner, watch shows andContinue reading “i have bad days. don’t we all.”

When I was ill, I made a lot of mistakes in life.  I would say things that in my right mind I would never say.  I would do things that in my right mind I would never do. I smoked cigarettes, for goodness sake, me, the person who would never ever touch a cigarette inContinue reading “be better.”

Mental illness is not automatically negative.  My journey and my story is and always has been very positive.  I may have had some awful experiences and awful times in my life, however I actually see my story as positive.  I find sometimes people associate negativity with mental illness, and I think that is the firstContinue reading “my story is positive.”