Author Archives: Samantha Mercanti

I have bad days.  Don’t we all.  My bad days can be tough.  Sometimes I just want to curl up in my bed and not talk to anyone and not deal with life.   Those days, I do get up, go on my computer, go for a run, go to work, have dinner, watch shows andContinue reading “i have bad days. don’t we all.”

When I was ill, I made a lot of mistakes in life.  I would say things that in my right mind I would never say.  I would do things that in my right mind I would never do. I smoked cigarettes, for goodness sake, me, the person who would never ever touch a cigarette inContinue reading “be better.”

Mental illness is not automatically negative.  My journey and my story is and always has been very positive.  I may have had some awful experiences and awful times in my life, however I actually see my story as positive.  I find sometimes people associate negativity with mental illness, and I think that is the firstContinue reading “my story is positive.”

For my first university degree, while I was on a Letter of Permission, I actually failed a course.  I knew I was going to fail the course by the drop date.   I could have dropped the course, but because I was so lost and broken, I didn’t drop the course.   I just continued on andContinue reading “marathon to a 5K…”

My whole life changed in one moment.  Until you have experienced this you might never truly understand it.  I probably should have died that night in my residence room or in the days after when I did not sleep.    Yet, for some reason, I survived.  And I am grateful every day for this. IContinue reading “appreciate life”

Many people I have talked to over the years always say to me well my friends and families lives are perfect, mine is just horrible, they did all the right things in their lives, they have great jobs, got married at the right time, had kids, bought the perfect house.   And I always kind ofContinue reading “do good and forget about it.”

Before you start any new fitness regimen or any new sport, please talk to your doctor and/or health professional. When you are so lost and you don’t think or know what will happen to you or if you will ever be okay again, you would probably latch on to something that makes you feel better. Continue reading “there is a story behind why i love running and golfing.”

I usually write my blog posts based on the universe.  I usually listen to the universe and write based on what I feel and think at this moment in time. I always think that maybe God and the universe wanted to know what I was made of.  I sometimes wonder, why did I deserve this.  Continue reading “maybe the universe wants to know what I am made of…”

I wasn’t really sure if I should write this post.  I thought some people would not like it or maybe find it insensitive, but I have been thinking about this from the beginning of everything happening in the world and shutting the world down because of a pandemic.   I see this all the time. Continue reading “linked…”

My psychiatrist said that I may never be the same person I was before my illness.  I don’t think in life anyone is the same person they were when they were around ten or fifteen years old.  I really don’t 100 percent know when my illness started, around fifteen I would say, it could haveContinue reading “changed yet forever unchanged…”