Author Archives: Samantha Mercanti

After years of reflection, you think I would have figured this out by now. Recently, I realized, that I am very in control of everything in my life. I then recognized that the reason of this is my fear of going back to that teenager and young adult who was so out of control inContinue reading “let go”

New year’s day is just one day. One day to start fresh, to start over, to start a new chapter, to reflect and try to be better. But what if we woke up every day like it was new year’s day, to start fresh, to start over, to start a new chapter, to reflect andContinue reading “one day”

I’ve always wondered why when I write it’s thought to be set in stone. Words, thoughts, life and everything in between changes each and every day. One day I may think and feel one thing and another day I may think and feel the complete opposite. And that is okay and how it should be.Continue reading “set in stone”

The number one reason I left social media was for work. It was time. Many people asked me to return, I wish I could, but I can’t. When I was about 24 years old, I left social media. And I did not come back until about 7 or 8 years later. During this time, IContinue reading “why i left”

We need to continually work on ourselves. This is a concept that people sometimes miss. And when talking to people I sometimes see it a lot. The past two years I have been doing intense work on myself both professionally and personally, and will likely never stop. I don’t have many really difficult days anymore.Continue reading “last two years”

I never thought I was supposed to survive that night in my dorm room. I just recently started sharing this. I was given a second chance at life, be it difficult. That experience changed me. I would say in a better way. Even though I struggled in the years after, I grew. I likely haveContinue reading “survive and thrive”

I saw a post on a social media platform – it was about how you know who people really are when you are struggling, those who will stay and those who will go. As someone who has struggled deeply, I don’t fully understand this. In healing, you realize that you are no one’s responsibility. NoContinue reading “no one is responsible for me”

I have learned in my journey. With all the amazing and all the awful, I do feel I have learned. Yet, I have not learned too. Sometimes I think I have this place figured out. I feel smart, wise and knowledgeable or people tell me I am. Most days though, I feel like I haven’tContinue reading “do i know anything”

I have not blog posted in a while! School and work and life have been busy lately! Before my first episode in university (happened first year final exams), I was a star in the lab. You could ask me anything, tell me anything, and I could do it, no questions asked. I loved being inContinue reading “i wish”

What an interesting year, or should I say two years – somewhat difficult, somewhat rewarding and somewhat altering. Even though challenging, I don’t want to change what I went through the past year, I learned a lot about myself, about this world, about mental illness and about life. In everything in life, there is somethingContinue reading “this past year”