Author Archives: Samantha Mercanti

Being open was not a choice for me.  Some may think or say I made this choice or I had a choice, but I did not.  It was a little bit more like the decision was already made for me, I could not see my life any differently.  I knew deep down that being openContinue reading “being open”

I am not strong all the time and you do not have to be strong all the time.  There are days when I wonder where my strength has gone.  What I know is that I have strength and so do you.  There are times in my life when I have felt weak or may haveContinue reading “stronger”

Sometimes I find in our world, like the invisible expectation of perfection, we think or maybe we subconsciously try to fit in the box.  There is this narrow lane of what we should do in life, and we cannot deviate from that lane.  I have always been very awkward and weird, and I have alwaysContinue reading “i love being awkward”

My mind goes to dark places.  Maybe it is my mind that brings me to these dark places or maybe it is something else.  All I know is that I need to remind myself that what I am thinking will eventually pass. Are we supposed to be positive and happy all the time?  Does thisContinue reading “we all go to dark places”

I just wanted to share a little more information about me. I am a pretty simple person.  I do not need or want a fancy a car, a fancy house or fancy things.  I do like buying nice clothes because I love fashion.  I actually have wanted to start a personal shopping business, because IContinue reading “a little bit about me.”

Disordered eating is a difficult subject for me.  I have been on this journey for a few years.  I think the issue for me is that I sometimes am not honest with myself or I do not truly understand what I am going through. The past six months I had a lot of triggers andContinue reading “eat happy and enjoy the run”

One thing I have learned in my life is that you do have to forgive the people that may have hurt you in your life.  Forgiveness is difficult.  I believe the most difficult forgiveness is the forgiveness of ourselves for our past mistakes.  We do need to forgive others, but we also need to forgiveContinue reading “forgiveness and healing”

Going to university with a mental illness (and even a physical illness) in the year 2001 is very different than going to university nowadays.  It is much better now but we do still have a long way to go.  Everyone has a tutor now.  I was never offered a tutor in my chem degree onContinue reading “a little more info…”

Why do we sometimes lack compassion?  I have always wondered this.  Maybe I lacked it for some periods of my life.  Compassion is an interesting thing.  Do you have compassion?  Do we all somewhere deep down have compassion?   Feeling compassion for others is given to us only if we want it and are truly readyContinue reading “compassion.”

The only people who truly know what I went though are my parents.  If you want to know more ask them or ask me.  For some reason a lot of people don’t ask me, they just assume maybe they know.  My parents saw firsthand what I went through and my parents did everything with meContinue reading “why i am so close to my parents.”