special

I was talking to my cousin and she was telling me, Sam people care about you and what you do.

And I was like, are you sure? I’m really not that special, I am just like everyone else.

This concept is very hard for me to grasp.

In Buddhism, all living things are created equal, I am no more important than anyone else.

I don’t understand why I would matter to other people because we are all the same.

Then my friend the other day said, Sam you wrote a book.

And I laughed, right.

I still am not grasping the concept and continue to try to wrap my head around it.

I definitely get that people pay attention to my advocacy work and philanthropic goals, maybe because I see that as the most important part of what I do.

I was definitely born a nerd and an introvert, so that might have something to do with how my brain is wired. I just live my life the way I want, and I never thought anything of it.

Like a previous post, I always love being a part of other people’s stories, even the people I follow on social media. On one platform, I unfollowed some accounts, and I left over a thousand accounts because I was like, I like you all, even if I don’t pay attention that much to everything you do.

I’ll leave you with this. I am just a girl, living in a crazy world, and I mean crazy. Trying to help it out a little, advocating when I have time, learning as much as I can as I am here, and trying to be a decent person. Oh, I should mention I like to joke around and laugh.

However, if I am truly special, I hope you remember me as a person who wakes up every day with a kind and honest heart, who loves people and treated them right while she was here, and who wants a better world but doesn’t really know how to define that better world. There might be more, but this is what came to mind right now.

As I sit here and try to grasp the concept, I still can’t. My brain is wired a certain way and I am who I am.

But I do want to say, thank you for thinking of me in this way, it makes me think that I might be doing something somewhat right.