My psychiatrist said that I may never be the same person I was before my illness.
I don’t think in life anyone is the same person they were when they were around ten or fifteen years old. I really don’t 100 percent know when my illness started, around fifteen I would say, it could have been earlier.
I may never be the same person I was before my illness. That was a sad and hard thing for my parents to hear. But I do believe my psychiatrist was right in saying that to my parents. I knew from the minute I knew I was ill that I would definitely never be the same after this illness.
No one is really the same after an illness, are they?
I understood what my psychiatrist meant though. I might not ever fully recover.
However, by the grace of God and by the grace of the universe, I did. Was it easy? Hell no. My recovery took work, it still takes work every single day.
I am not the same person I was before this illness, who would be, but that is not what my psychiatrist meant.
Through this illness, I did change, I grew a lot more, I understand the world a lot more and I learned a lot more about life. Everything in life does change us. But that was not what my psychiatrist meant.
I think what my psychiatrist meant was that this illness would never bring me back a full comprehension and full mind.
And I am happy to say I proved the system wrong.
I have the mind of the person I was before 10 years old, I am the same person, of course I have been through a lot, I have grown up a lot and I am maybe a little broken, but I get what she was saying, and I am honestly grateful each and every day that I proved this statement wrong.
I basically proved this world wrong, and I am hoping to show the world that you can be the same person you were before the illness. I am hoping to show the world that even though you may have a mental illness, you can come back to this world the same person you came into it as.
Do not ever forget that, you will be older, smarter, wiser, and maybe a little broken, but you can be the same person you were before.
So, for me, I am changed and yet forever unchanged and am grateful and humbled every day for this.