a little bit about me.

I just wanted to share a little more information about me.

I am a pretty simple person.  I do not need or want a fancy a car, a fancy house or fancy things.  I do like buying nice clothes because I love fashion.  I actually have wanted to start a personal shopping business, because I love making people feel beautiful in what they are wearing, no matter what shape or size.

I was diagnosed with schizophrenia many years ago.  Once I was diagnosed, I slowly began to speak openly.  I have anxiety as well.  And I am undiagnosed with driver’s obsessive compulsive disorder and undiagnosed with disordered eating, even though my counsellor is aware of both.

I do not like to judge people or talk badly about people.  Maybe I did years ago, but I grew up.  I only worry about my character now.  I have no right to judge anyone else, that is not my job.  I am only concerned about me and only me and my character and my body, whatever you do with your character and your body is not my business.

I am usually honest, sometimes that can get me into trouble.  I tell people what I think, most of the time.  I also try to be kind.  Probably because I know how difficult this life can be.  I do not want to make it worse for anyone.  I try to be a good and kind person. I am far from perfect though, and make mistakes all of the time, but I hope I get points for really trying to be a good and kind person.

I used to be a competitive dancer.  I loved dance and am starting to get back into it. I danced ballet, pointe, modern, jazz, lyrical and tap.  I completed my full ballet and jazz exams.  I loved to dance and hope I can gain the skill back.  I am a dancer at heart and enjoy the joy that dance brings.

I will run forever.  If you listen to me speak, I go into what I have done so far with races.  Running, like dance, will forever be in my heart.  I will be that ninety-year-old woman running in a race or dancing around the house.  

I have been single for a very long time, and I will probably remain single.  I love being on my own and the independence it brings.  I actually love being single. Would I get into a relationship? Maybe. But you would really have to convince me.

I like to talk about mental illness and mental health.  I have sometimes talked to people while standing in a line at the bank or when I go to a store.  I talk about mental illness and mental health wherever I go, mostly because I know that the more we talk about mental illness and mental health, the more it just becomes like everything else we talk about.

I believe that everyone’s mental illness journey is very unique, as is their recovery.  I share what worked for me, but I believe everyone has a unique journey and a unique recovery.  I do believe everyone can recover, in their own amazing and unique way. 

I have embraced my madness.  Maybe because I could not see my life any other way.

I want to make this world a good place, for everyone, not just some.   

I like my life.  I like it a lot.  I am happy.  I am healthy.  And I would not change it for a thing.   

I will forever and I mean forever be grateful to God and the universe for a second chance at life. 

There is a lot more about me, but this gives you a little more insight and I hope you find some peace and joy through my blog.